HoLiDaY!!!

being here...at HOME has put me to rest...

no longer do I have to put up with this nonsense connection in college...damn...thinking of the connection makes me roar with anger...hehehe

I cant wait for 19th June...I really hope to see my babies...UKISS babies...damn...I have to go alone as all my friends r home already...but honestly, I'm scared that I wont be able to go without company...Haish~~~

But still I'm like 70% wanting to go...bringing who as partner is still vague but oh...I WANT TO GO.!!!

Hell,! I am planning 2 buy a guitar...n strum it like like crazee...

Honestly, I will buy 1 n just learn to play ARIGATOU by CNBLUE...Hope to make it...

n yeah...my lifelong hope D.I.E.T.T.I.N.G I am gonna try...succeeding is unknown though...

ps: I lost my soul in writing this blog...this post is to be read emotionless, as I wrote it without any feeling~~~

Daaaaa.....

to say I'm ADDICTED is an understatement~~

it's my new PASSION~~~

aku sgt suke n sayang pd mereka neyh...xtaula bile aku akan stop gilekan dorg~~

Mis COmmuNicTioN....

I m not Mis Commnication...Why u ask?? Coz I m bad at commuNICATING...Huh~~No surprise la kot...

to me in communicating yg the most kite buat day by day is to goSSIp...ituh penting...The Second is small talks...share new upcoming events dlm life kite, talks bout foods yg kite mkn, talks bout guys yg baru lalu dpn mate, n talks bout BAK ( oopss thats me actually)...

tp kan, aku ni agak lemah dlm communicating bile smpai waktu nk argue...argue stakat yg remeh temeh tuh blehla...cth: sape patot menang AF or American Idol...Hehehe... tp bile smpai nk argue bende penting dlm hidop aku, oh sgt susah wooo~~ bile it really matters the most, aku mcm lembu dicocok hidung ( nsb bkn dicucuk punggong )... just go with the flow la kunun...Oh boleh belah la weh...

tp honestly, communicating ini sgt penting tahap kegabanan especially nk mempertahankan hak kite...jgnla smpai kite dilihat lemah hanye kerana xpandai mempertahankan diri..hanye senyap bile ditanya or ditekan... tp 1 thing la kan, aku xmau pendam sgt kekecewaan bile aku xdpt argue dgn baek...takot I MELETUS...oh scary, stakat ni blom lagi dilihat di public...jgn smpai ia terkeluar dr dlm badan I yg besaq neyh...

KebOdoHaN

AKu KEBODOHAN...SANGAT kot...

hah...bile nmpak muke takbersalah die aku rase sgt2 rindu...bodoh tol...dulu kao yg elak dr die bile elok2 berkawan...kenape??? coz u r 2 scared u'll be hurt by something yg really ambiguous at the time...bungux la...

Mungkin betol care Si** di mane die stay as fren with sum1 yg suke die...n to that man, sgt brave of u kot...stay as fren, mane tau nnt2 bole ade can...HUH~~

AhhhHH...MengaPE??

Focus to the future...But the future is unknown la plak kan...Aku seakan-akan menangisi future yg xpasti...sayang, ia terlalu jauh...

ape future aku??? KAWEN??? to tell u all the truth, aku mmg ade angan2 yg oh-so-BIG bout my wedding...the classical baju pengantin, the simplicity of the theme, cutie cupcakes for wedding cakes, n the oh-so-wonderful husband beside me...Tp honestly, aku hanye imagine of that wedding day without a single drop of faith yg the wedding will be ON...Ntah, membujang kot aku smpai ke tua...Huh~~

n then comes my career...mampu ke aku nk bercikgu-cikgi n all...capable ke aku nk membimbing anak bangsa...nk confront others, n get involve with it all...ntahla, sgt2 xmau pk pasal itu...tp i kept mengelak, until when la weh???huish...

n now the fact that I'm being fat...oh-so-basi...low self-esteem...kekurusan menjanjikan kebahagiaan???mungkin lah...tp aku xbersedia...tertekan pon ade...peoples kept saying *nak diet*, they all are *gemok*...wat bout me then???u think I dont want 2 diet???haish~~~oh quoted from nova ye...though i know she means well, but I can't help but TERASA okeh...

Dear Malaysians. Pls dont let ur self get fat n pls dont let ur children get fat too. Its SICKENING. Some people r born with a big build but dey r not fat! U R!

Bikin sakit jiwa tgk org yg tlampau berat sendiri susah m0 jalan.

Scary ni..i duduk2 here tgk org lalu lalang..terimagine wat if dey pengsan n fell on me..ID DIE! Kena pisak!

ah~~aku sedeyh...aku nk ke future, tp d current is still vague...oh how I long for happiness...