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Okay...admit it, aku lame kot tak tulis blog...walaupon takde pembaca or whatnot, aku tetap rase sengal hati bile fikir dah lame tak tulis blog...Kenape tak tulis???salah satu sebabnyer adelah ketiadaan connection...Arghhh malas fikir...

sebut pasal malas fikir, aku perasan lately aku selalu sebut ayat tuh...'Ahhh Malas Fikirlah'...Siyes, selalu sangat sampai rase bosan dengar ayat tuh dr mulut sendiri...Aku ni mmg nak jadi some1 yg memang malas fikir ke???taktaula, sebab rase sekarang ni bile ade jek probs atau konflik yang singgah kat fikiran, aku teros ade fixed mindset bahawe aku takmau fikir pasal bende tu...ESCAPISM???maybe la kot...

so sekarang ni, aku masih nak berpegang pade prinsip malas fikir tuh n just continue life one step at a time...Biarla ape pon orang nak kate, aku ade life sendiri kot...orang lain pon ade life masing2 so, aku malas fikir pasal diorang if diorang pon malas fikir pasal aku...aku nak suka2 aje...marila kite suka2 kawan2...

Geram...Geram...

Geram gile ok...rase macam ade asap berkepul-kepul jek keluar dr hidong diselangi some puffs of fire...kenape geram???sebab takdapat OnlinE langsong kot~~~ye, aku ni memang hantu online di rumah, tapi aku sedar jek diri bahawe aku takdela nak online sepanjang mase kat UPM sinun...tp masalahnyer adelah, tak sesaat pon aku dapat online kot kat sane...so the reason I'm complaining sekarang adelah kerana aku stress tak bole online...

atleast aku nak gakla online tgk2 facebook or maybe tweet something kan...tapi berapi jek rase bile langsong takleh nk bukak ape2 webpage...bukanla aku expect nk tgk youtube mcm yg aku wat kt rumah, tp atleast, kalu aku rase nk surf the web for gossips ker bolehla aku just klik je kat lappy aku ni...tp ni, asek2 bengang jek bile tgk ade connection, tp online???takleh harap langsong...

n aku sgt2 reluctant nk pakai broadband...siyes, tak terdetik pon nk pakai broadband tuh...rase mcm not worth it sgt2...so aku harap within this week, adela connection uspot kt kolej...malas dh nak fikir pasal kebengangan takleh online...HUH!!!

HaRi KelimA

ermmm...

"One Can Never Consent to Creep When One Feel an Impulse to Soar"

Baek punye favorite quote~~~actually xdela favorite sgt pon quote neyh...tp oleh kerana aku hidop tanpa menyukai quoe2 yg best, make aku pilih jek quote neyh~~~

aku dpt quote neyh from the lovable SEOBABY~~

pade aku quote neyh makna die, kite tak boleh nak mudah puas hati ngan ape-ape je yang tengah terjadi kat diri ni sedangkan kite sendiri tahu yang kite boleh jadi lebih dari tu...emmm macam pening la pulak kan...tapi yela, fikir camni jela, kononnye akula, sekarang kan belajar nak jadi cikgu cikgi...tapi aku tahu aku ade keinginan lain untuk buat dalam hidup aku ni...well, my lifelong goal adelah aku nak duduk kat luar negara...be it in the USA, Korea or in the Saudi Arabia (ye, mmg aku macam berangan lebih, so WHAT??)...so sebagai manusia yang memang ade angan angan ni, aku tak boleh la 'Consent to Creep' with just being a teacher kat Malaysia ni for the rest of my life sebab aku ade 'Impulse to Soar' aka nak pergi migrate...

jadi ape yang aku perlu buat kawan-kawan???ape??? takpe takpe jangan risau ye kawan kawan...aku dah ade rancangan...aku dah ade vision (PERGHHH GELIKGILE) ape rancangan tu???adela, mane boleh gitau...nanti nanti akan adalah post berkenaan itu...jangan risau lah ye~~~

okla, nak cau cin cau dulu...bubbyeee!!!!

mari pulang ke sana~~

ah...gloomy nyer rase~~nk balek UPM suda...waaaaaa malas nyer rase...dh mmg adat aku, asal nk balek UPM jek rase mcm nk tercabot nyawe...pastu start rase homesick sgt2...huuuu~~~

arini aku rase my few months home adelah sgt terwasted...xwat pape except online n lying around the house...huh!!!sgt melalaikan n membosankan...tp aku enjoy jek...hehehe

so isnin neyh atau lebih tepat lagi, esok, start la rutin aku sebagai seorang pelajar tahun akhir kt Upm tuh...aku bkn lagi freshie yg innocent n xtau pape...dh knal kosmet luar dlm, n masak sgt ngan perangai my 40 dearest kosmet...walaupon xrapat ngan sume, aku tau diorg punyer personality, hands down!!!n on my final year neyh, klas 1st akan dimulekan ngan 'dearest' cik pah...ahhh xtau nk komen pe...just go with the flow jelah...hate or love is just a feeling I can totally hide...hehehe

dhla, aku nk enjoy my few last moments kat umah neyh...bye bye 2 months of leisuring, hello 4 months of studying!!!!

Darah Saye~~

aku tetibe jek nk wat entry pasal bloodtype...ntahla, lepas bace entry aku mase kelas drama dulu n pastu tringat cite UKISS Vampire, tros rase ‘Oh! aku patut explain diri aku based on my bloddtype.’

Sebabnye adelah aku rase aku neyh sgt serius at certain time smpai nmpak mcm sgt super skema...aku ngaku mmg aku camtuh...kdg2 aku kepoh sgt konon nk wat yg terbaek (KONON) n piker something terlalu mendalam n nmpak mcm sgt annoying...

aku xdela nk kate aku percaya 100% pasal analisis diri based on blood type neyh, tp aku percaye bahawe siket2 kajian yg dibuat utk dpt analisis neyh, pasti ade yg betolnyer...mule2 pade yg wonder apekejadahnyer UKISS Vampire tuh, kat sini aku ade bubuh 1^st episode cite tuh, g la cari kt Youtube kalu nk lagi...

well, puas hati??? Dah, jom kite bace cket kajian pasal org2 yg berdarah jenis ‘A’...aku lah orgnyer...

“Type A blood types are defined as farmers. They are considered conventional in all that they do. They are considerate to other people, and find it hard to tell lies. Loyalty towards friends and co-workers is another trait. On the downside they can be secretive. This means they don’t often share their feelings, and can become insecure and pessimistic. Apparently, once they’ve had a few drinks they can turn into nasty pieces of work.”

(http://www.allsands.com/health/bloodtypeperso_zud_gn.htm)

· Reserved calm, even tempered, introverted, sensitive to public opinion, responsible, reliable

· even tempered and takes charge when others are in confusion

· may be introvert or standoffish or shy

· may feel nervous or ill at ease with others

· sensitive to surroundings and others

· hesitant to change

· may feel misunderstood

· may shy from group

· nature lover

· prefers suburbs away from crowds

· needs a private space for refuge

· may be accused of being pessimist because of fear of change

· many are artists or creative types due to sensitivity

· craves success

· tasty served with any vegetable

(http://webhome.idirect.com/~kehamilt/typa.htm)

Ok, agak scary sebab hamper sume analisis neyh kene kat batang idong sendirik...lebeyh2 lagi yg aku dh bold kan tuh...1^st skali adelah secretive...okeyh, aku mmg sgt secretive okeyh...kat blog neyh jek aku rant like crazy...kalu kat real life, HARAM la aku nk bgtau kat org ape masalah aku...siyes, bkn xpercaye kat org tp rase cm masalah aku neyh sgt remeh but at the same time mcm memalukan diri sendirik...n I can assure you that none of you yg tau atlis 80% pasal diri aku...n don’t feel bad, aku rase family aku sendirik pon only know like 70% of me...aku xsuke ckp ngan org pasal diri aku n lebeh xsuke kalu org ckp pasal diri aku...tp aku xkesah org nk cite pape kat aku...I’m more than welcome to that...

Shy n needs private space for refuge tuh mmg sebati ngan aku...well, maybe it is associated ngan fizikal aku, n also because aku neyh secretive...so kalu aku rase pape, aku lebeyh suke dok sorg2 n just cry my heart out...aiseh, benci gak ngan diri sendirik kadang2...

Xsuke perubahan n pesimistik plak aku rase mmg dh kene antare satu same laen...aku rase kalu aku cube wat something new, aku might end up failing...thats y aku rase aku lebeyh suke hidop aku the way it is...xsuke langsong ade slight difference in my life...for example, mase cuti neyh...aku malas gile nk g kuar jalan2 sbb ntah, mcm mengganggu jadual hidop aku...haish~~~

Tp korg jgn la risau lebeyh2...aku bkn all the time siyes n mcm nk mkn org...like the analysis said ‘once they’ve had a few drinks they can turn into nasty pieces of work’...aku mmg akan be the most craziest person you have ever met kalu my right mood n emotions are in the right time...HuH~~aku suke hepi...sape xsuke kan...so, seboleh-bolehnye aku nk enjoy hidop aku yg dull n boring neyh...so aku arap korg akan ade utk enjoy dgn aku jugak!!!

ohye, kalu korg nk tgk analisis darah korang g la kt laman web yg aku bg tuh...pandai2 r cari sendirik...gugel jek...

KIM HYUN JOONG

Credits to http://tvzonebbs6.media.daum.net/+ (Chinese translation) 爱@ Gelzo + (English translation) s2rene@lovekimhyunjoong.com

http://yenhersheytriples.blogspot.com/

"That man that the Samsung staffs called ‘Kim Hyun Joong’ (Samsung Card Activity Fan Account)

I neither am someone who has come to this place and post nor thought that I would actually post such things. I was incidentally chosen for Samsung Card, as someone who had spend more than an hour with this man called ‘Kim Hyun Joong’, I would like to share with everyone what I had seen with my very own eyes about this commoner called ‘Kim Hyun Joong’.

First: ‘I’m eating with my fan hence I don’t want to receive money.’
Normally for Samsung, the participating fan would have to pay the activity fees, since it is after all an ‘Eating with Kim Hyun Joong ‘activity, but this man called ‘Kim Hyun Joong rejected it and expressed that he just wanted to eat with the fan, just come, don’t need to pay such fees.

Second: ‘Just want to meet with fan comfortably and happily without being watched by the reporters and the cameras’
Since he’s a star, Samsung thinks that there should definitely be reporters and the cameras. When asked about his thoughts on whether there should be recording, this man called Kim Hyun Joong expressed that he just want to chat comfortably with the fan, be happy and have fun, because it’s awkward to just sit quietly hence would like to play some interesting games.

Third: ‘I have no problem with the time hence would like to play games, I don’t have other schedules so it’s okay’
The game took longer than excepted, hence more than an hour had passed. As a result, the host expressed that the game should stopped, but this man called ‘Kim Hyun Joong’ while someone was looking at the watch expressed that he’s fine, because being with fan is very interesting, hence would like to continue, the Samsung staff was surprised and said that she/he always thought that to star, time is money.

Fourth: ‘I like military tanks…would like to have one’
When it’s time for the fan to ask question, the fan asked what kind of car does he like to drive. Perhaps fearing to give a misleading answer, he thought in silence for a moment. This man called ‘Kim Hyun Joong’ replied that he would like but unable to drive a military tank. The Samsung Staff said that it’s very 4-Dimensional and at the same time very thoughtful. (Note: Anyone who is a fan of star will know that when any star said he likes something, as a fan who likes him, she will try her best to buy what he wants and give it to him, hence Kim Hyun Joong gave such answer.)

Fifth: ‘From now on, my aim is to give a free and happy concert, one where fans need not pay money’
When asked what aim he has for the future, without any hesitation, this man called ‘Kim Hyun Joong’ said his reply. It’s not to become a Hallyu star nor be a world star but let the fans not to worry over money and happily watch concert as his aim. This man called ‘Kim Hyun Joong’. The Samsung staff said that he’s really someone who cares for the fans.
Even though I’m someone who knows Kim Hyun Joong, knows SS501 for a short period, this activity of which I was incidentally chosen, allowed me to see this commoner side of Kim Hyun Joong of which made me feel even more delighted.

Even though I don’t know a lot of details (due to the time of being a fan), that day, what I had seen and felt of this man called ‘Kim Hyun Joong’, he’s not like what everyone is saying, he’s not someone who will abandon his members, wants to disband(SS501),choose(new) company due to money. Even the ones who host this activity felt the same and expressed that he’s very good man. Before Kim Hyun Joong and the other members have officially announced their disbandment, before they have spoken about this, everyone should believe (them) more than me. Having supported Kim Hyun Joong for so long, those criticisms of him, it isn’t late to say it after we know the truth right. As someone who works as a nurse at one of Kang Nam’s hospital, I have seen many stars who came to see doctors, (realised that) stars are ordinary people too who will bleed when they’re injured. If this thread is an opportunity to make people understand Kim Hyun Joong more, it is allowed to be moved to any places, hope that more people will know. Even up to now I still feel very thankful to them because I got to know Kim Hyun Joong and SS501.Because I was not a fan then hence didn’t know where to write this account. Hyun Love (ID)."

Benarkan aku rase sedeyh for a while???Leader...org yg at 1st aku rase marah bile denga gosip ss501 nk disband...n totally like this article written by a lucky fan, aku xkenal ss501 selame other tripleS, n aku xkenal leader selame org laen...n honestly aku bkn lagi a big fan of leader for a while sejak aku suke Suju n Ukiss...tp this kind of stuff just make your heart melt kot...the essence of leadership n most importantly the essence of humanity sgt tebal dlm leader yg agak sengal neyh...

n like the writer wrote, lets just be a fan yg support dorg,esp leader yg probably tgh lalui one of the most difficult hurdles in his life...kite xde hak nk marah kat die without us being in their position...

now...lets sing LOVE YA altogether...n oppa, I dedicate this song to u to enjoy...yeah, it is of SUJU n I did it to share the love I have for ALL KPOP artist...n my love is enough for ss501, SUJU n all~~~

there cant be 'no other' ss501~~

4HARI

lame btol aku xusik 30 days project aku kan...ntahla...aritu punye la semangat, tp atas sbb2 yg annoying, aku stop...adela beberape occasions yg menyaketkan ati aku...n yeah~~~I'm not an obsessed Kpop lover yg hidop mati hanye pikir pasal Korea...siyes...itu hanyelah aku punyer escapism from the real world...n thrust me, aku akan balek ke dunie sebenar bile aku balek upm...xcaye???nnt tgkla bile aku kat upm, mesti meroyan bende2 yg mmg realistik...pasal human relation, human feelings and very much human frustration...soo...as for the time being, biala aku enjoy dgn life aku yg mmg kat alam fantasi...

okeyla, straight to the point, day 04- your favorite book...haa~~~as usual la kan, aku mesti tulis blog neyh tanpe mindset yg fix about my favorite...siyes, xtau nk pileh buku mane yg aku paling suke...hurm ade several buku yg pade aku masih kekal dlm minda aku even till now...typical Ima kan...hmmmmm...

tapi aku decide nk pilih satu jek...buku 'the sleeping doll' , 'rahsia perindu' n 'ombak rindu' sume terpakse aku tolak tepi...so here it goes~~

kalu xjelas tajok buku neyh, ia adelah Heidi by Johanna Spyri...buku neyh xdelah hebat mengalahkan segale buku dlm dunie neyh...plot die super simple...sweet n just nice...

kalu nk bagi summary buku neyh, aku rase baek korg g tros ke link neyh... http://www.jandysbooks.com/children/heidi.html

kat situ ade sikit summary pasal buku neyh, kalu nk tau penoh2 korg g la bace sendirik...

aku xbeli pon buku neyh...dpt kat sekolah...mase tuh library sekolah aku ade buang buku2 yg dorg rase dh lame2 n xgune lagi...so bersepah-sepahla buku kt kaki lima library tuh...oleh kerane aku sbg bdk form 6, ofkosla rapat ngan cekgu libarary kan...dhla library tuh sebelah jek klas kitorg...so, aku n beberape kwn pon g la tgk2 buku2 kat situ, byk gile buku yg bes2...even makalah die pon sume bes2 n very informative...tp oleh kerane bdk2 neyh lagi laju dr aku, aku dpt 1 jek buku...n it is called 'Heidi' lah...

aku amek mase setaun gak nk abeskan buku neyh...xtau nape...aku mmg slalu cmtuh, kalu bace buku yg mmg bkn intention aku nk beli mmg akan stuck punye...slalu dh gtu...unless buku tuh aku mmg dh aim nk beli, aku akan procrastinate bace buku tuh slame yg mungkin...the same case goes to Heidi...

Buku ni super sweet okeyh...die pasal heidi yg at first umor 5 tahun dh kene tinggal kt atas gunung ngan atok die...cube bygkan korg mmg bdk bandar n tetibe jek kene tggl kat 'uncivilized' place...kite slalu ingat kite mesti xkan survive kalu kite neyh end up stranded kat somewhere yg kite xbiase...it is the case of Heidi at 1st...as bdk2 mane la nk besekan ngan countrylife yg sgt2 limited...just imagine la kite neyh ibaratnyer xde tv, lappy, handphone or whatnot...tggl Heidi neyh bdk kecik la, die xde lagi sume material2 tuh...tp kite cube kaitkan jugak ngan hidop kite okeyh???

with minimal basic needs mcm makanan, minuman, baju n tempat berteduh, Heidi end up enjoying the life with her atok in the mountain...aku sgt tersentuh n amazed bile Johanna describe Heidi mkn roti with freshly perah goat milk n some cheese...aku rase mknn tuh very basic, but in the end that is what Heidi misses the most...n bile die naik mountain ngan kambing2 yg atok die bela, it seems so pure n honest n aku rase aku skali ade kt atas gunung tuh...

siyes, cite xberat n sgt soothing...tp aku cant get over this book sgt...it shows that the simplest things in life can be the best things in our entire life...we have to learn to appreciate our life n just live it to the fullest...boleh ke aku nk imply bende neyh dlm idop aku???siyes xtau...tp aku akan cube...like this korea thingy la, aku cube enjoy bende neyh sbb aku tau aku akan lalui perasaan yg xbest in the future...so slagi sempat, baek aku enjoy kan???merepek~~~

okeyhla, dh dulu for now...eh cube la korg bace cite classics neyh...kalu beli gune Penguin Classics, mesti dpt murah jek...n lagipon xtebal langsung...korg bace smbil minum ptg...

oh BTW BEAST is the B2ST...starting to like them...suke sgt minat org yg baru jek blah dr Malaysia kan aku neyh...